I thought about you, well I've been thinking about you a lot lately and I owe you an apology. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for neglecting you, when I heard you crying and begging to be seen. I'm sorry that I decided to do other things instead of tend to your wounds. I'm sorry that I was neglectful, selfish, blind and ultimately stupid. I know it's a lot to ask but, I ask for you to forgive me.
I was on this road, a very long road to get to this place of happiness. A place where Papa (God) has been directing me and preparing me for, for the past 12 years. I checked in with you from time to time, but in all honesty it wasn't enough and this I know. As much as I hate those random people hitting me up to 'check in' aka be nosy; I did the same thing to you.
For the past seven months, it's been revealed to me that we will be reconnected. Remember a time when we were inseparable? Those late nights, early mornings; the staying in on weekends just so we could be cuddled up together? Our crazy ideas, stories and thoughts filling the room with laughter? Man those were good times.
We've been getting back to that, our dream that we had together since we ere six years old. Man, we've been rockin together for over 22 years, how blessed are we? The past seven months of rediscovery have been amazing, our ability to reconnect and pick back up from where we left off is amazing. I am forever grateful. I love you, I will forever cherish you.
This time my love, we'll take on a new city in a few weeks and we'll have no one in the way. Instead we'll finally be surround by people who understand our love for one another. How great is that? To be accepted? To be so head over heels for something and have people actually understand the hours, the drive, the determination and everything else that comes with it?
I love you and I'm sorry for the bad treatment over the years. I know you forgive me because what's in the past is the past. We have our entire future to make up for those times; and we're off to a great start.
So my dear, my love, my writing. We have a ways to go and this journey has been bumpy but yet appreciated. As things line up, Papa is blessing us and showing us our time and our moves. I'm ready and I know you are Los Angeles, here we come.