until I realized that my life is mine and what I make of it, is exactly what I will get out of it
looking to others for that satisfaction instead of looking at ... me
putting all my thoughts on paper, and erasing the truth to rewrite a fictitious nature
Staring at the ceiling
until I drown myself with my own thoughts and excluding God, worse thing I've ever done
to anyone around me because it's their fault not mine.....
realize now I'm all I have, can't hide or run from what I see or who I've become
I can hear all these things, that's how quiet I've become
and not taking action
words being said
no action being taken
from those I surrounded myself with
Now I'm thinking, escaping into my writing, pointing the blame to my heart beats that caused me to wait and dream on the words, actions and excuses of others. Swimming in my words in the lake that God has made for me. Not drowning because he helped me, now I'm able to just be....
and most importantly
By: Ebony Williams :)