Thursday, July 20, 2017

Life-less

The sun shines bright and it beams on the palm trees.
The mango tree branches move so seductively as
as mango's drop, one branch at a time.

Life-less
Is not what they are instead they're living in the moment.
Taking in every swig of air, every watery drip of rain and every beam from the sun rays.

The grass is bright green, but I can't walk on it because of the ants that dominate over the grounds.
The cement is hot, I love my bare feet on the driveway; but not today.
Sweat beads drop from my forehead one by one.
One dances down the right side of my cheek while another rides down my nose.

Life-less
Is not what I am today. Today I take in each step and watch  my body move.
The way it reacts around solace and peace is much better than pain with no release.

The house is hot, it's making me breathe in a different way.
In a way that's unrecognizable to my body, so she freaks out.
But I calm her down with some iced water and mango.
Then, I stop watch the baby lizards move across the window and smile.

Life-less
That's what the insects look like on the other side of the window.
Little do we know, they're playing possum from the sun.
Tanning a little as half their body is in the shade and the other in the rays.

Oh, I have shorts on today.
A blue tank.
Sandals, wedgies or heels is my biggest dilemma for the day.

Life-less
That entire prior paragraph made me laugh.
The biggest issue as of late is what shoes to find to match.
Green grass, I stand on it this time.
White sandals on too.
Take my dad's seven iron and set my stance.

Head down slightly to the right.
Legs hip width apart.
Knees slightly bent.
Shoulders slanted more towards the right like my head.
Right thumb over left, breath, swing.

Life-less
I could've easily chosen to be lifeless
But instead of not wanting to experience life less
I decided to think of life less

In a cherished kind of way of hopes and dreams.
In a loving way of 'that  will be me'.
In a confident way of God's got me.
In a chosen way of accepting everything.

Because of that, I don't worry much.
I worry less.
<3 Ebony

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Love Letter To You and a Reveal

I thought about you, well I've been thinking about you a lot lately and I owe you an apology. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for neglecting you, when I heard you crying and begging to be seen. I'm sorry that I decided to do other things instead of tend to your wounds. I'm sorry that I was neglectful, selfish, blind and ultimately stupid. I know it's a lot to ask but, I ask for you to forgive me.

I was on this road, a very long road to get to this place of happiness. A place where Papa (God) has been directing me and preparing me for, for the past 12 years. I checked in with you from time to time, but in all honesty it wasn't enough and this I know. As much as I hate those random people hitting me up to 'check in' aka be nosy; I did the same thing to you.

For the past seven months, it's been revealed to me that we will be reconnected. Remember a time when we were inseparable? Those late nights, early  mornings; the staying in on weekends just so we could be cuddled up together? Our crazy ideas, stories and thoughts filling the room with laughter? Man those were good times.

We've been getting back to that, our dream that we had together since we ere six years old. Man, we've been rockin together for over 22 years, how blessed are we? The past seven months of rediscovery have been amazing, our ability to reconnect and pick back up from where we left off is amazing. I am forever grateful. I love you, I will forever cherish you.

This time my love, we'll take on a new city in a few weeks and we'll have no one in the way. Instead we'll finally be surround by people who understand our love for one another. How great is that? To be accepted? To be so head over heels for something and have people actually understand the hours, the drive, the determination and everything else that comes with it?

I love you and I'm sorry for the bad treatment over the years. I know you forgive me because what's in the past is the past. We have our entire future to make up for those times; and we're off to a great start.

So my dear, my love, my writing. We have a ways to go and this journey has been bumpy but yet appreciated. As things line up, Papa is blessing us and showing us our time and our moves. I'm ready and I know you are Los Angeles, here we come.

<3 Ebony

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Ebony Does: Brunch At Snooze

I love food. That is the way to this girls heart. Not only do I love cooking it up in my kitchen or anyone's kitchen, but I love exploring new restaurants. My friend asked me if I've ever been to this brunch spot called Snooze.  She's from Texas and I used to live in Texas; and from all of my time in and out of Houston I've never experienced the amazingness that is Snooze. Why? Well, mainly because the line was so long and I'm not a patient person when it comes to food.

This time when we went, we had to wait almost an hour but she reassured me that it would be worth it. Now seeing that I had the new Jay-Z album 4:44, I wasn't to upset. We sat in her car listened to the album almost twice through until it was our turn to be seated.

Oh man, am I glad I waited. I got this eggs Benedict type of thing. Except it was on lox on rye toast. The salmon, mixed with the cream cheese, the tangyness of the bread, the pouched egg, the spices in the sauce and did I mention that I had a nice vodka cocktail to go with it? I don't know if I was buzzing or not, but nonetheless it was AMAZING! Moral of the story, go to Snooze wait for however long you have too; because it'll be worth it.