Saturday, January 19, 2019

Mindless Thunder

It's not that... 

Well I....

You see, sometimes.... 

It's been hard to figure out a way to start this blog. Recently, I've been heavy into posting videos of encouragement instead of writing them. Videos that I share on all my social media platforms like Twitter, Instagram and my Facebook fan page. My latest video got over 9k views on Twitter.  So I guess I'm saying something right, but still, to you, it's no excuse to go unheard of. 

Anywho, my mind has been in this weird space as of late.  I've been very busy and focused (nothing new) but this is on a new level. I've been asked many times, what's going on?  and you're so secretive! My answer to that is, not everything is meant to be posted. We go through a lot on a daily basis, sometimes we need to keep it to ourselves. If I can be honest, the reason why I don't hang out with certain people during this time is because I don't let in certain energies when I'm creating. 

For me, I can't be around certain people when I have a script to write or project I'm hired on. Some energies drain you and don't uplift you. Let's face it, most of those around us don't want to see us win.  I'll let you know this, there are some big things happening when it comes to writing and selling of my scripts and getting back into broadcasting. I have to keep my mind clear. I have to keep a positive atmosphere and those that I know have my back close.

I'm in a state of praise through all the pain. In a way I'm in disbelief from all that I've gone through to what God's giving me and blessing me with. With each new stepping stone I'm accomplishing, it could've only been done by the grace of God. 

For all those that I've helped get here like, letting you stay with me for months rent free, to have you turn your back on me. To helping you health wise and lose weight, in return for  you to disappear,  or for those I've given (not lending) money to make sure you can eat and pay bills, to have you turn your head away from me etc. I appreciate everything you've done in showing me who you are. 

I realized that it's not a reflection of me. God showed me you, so that I can see that you weren't meant to come with me on this journey. I'm the type to bring everyone with me, and I know I can't do that. I stick my neck out for people. I give great recommendations, so great that most of my acting friends have been casted in major projects. I'll continue to help those who deserve it, and God puts on my heart.

Now that I got that little jab out the way. Thanks for understanding my journey and being with me while I go through it.  
<3 Eb

Saturday, December 29, 2018

End of 2018


Where has the year gone? 

I don't want to be cliche, but where has the time gone? I feel like it was yesterday, when I decided to follow my heart and move to Los Angeles. It also seems like just yesterday when I was going through the hardest challenges I had ever faced. It was all a test to see if I really wanted it or not. You'll be surprised by how strong you are, when faced with doubts of self and God. 

When the very basics are taken away from you. When you have no choice but to succumb to the oddest of doings just to survive. When you call on those who are "there" for you, only to realize, they never were. It's amazing to me the amount of love I've gained, lost and separated from.  Now that those challenges are over, I can understand why they needed to happen. 

There's always a rise to your fall

Now that those challenges are over, I can appreciate the ones to come. I can also sit still, because God will always see me through. If he sought me through the trails that I faced over the past year, I know, that he will do the same for everything I'm going to face in the future. Because of this, I've found inner peace.  

Knowing that Gods got me, has me relaxed

2019. I wish I could tell you the things that are about to come before the New Year begins. I'm learning to wait, and sit in the blessings. I'm learning to love on them when they come and share them when necessary. I've been sitting on gold for the past six months. I've been sitting on some exciting news for the past week. All of which, will be revealed in time. 

When it comes to thinking about goals for 2019. I don't have any that require losing weight, or eating better nothing like that. Instead it's simple because I've reached so many of my personal hearts' desires. I plan to travel next year, both in and out of country. I plan to continue to love as hard as I can. I plan to pray harder and bigger while working on not panicking. 

For the remainder of the year and 2019, I hope that you're able to accomplish your goals and have all your dreams come true. I hope that you start that business. I hope that you tell that person that you love them. I hope you gather the courage to ask that person out. I hope that you start your diet and work on yourself. Most importantly, I hope that you forgive and LOVE you for you. That you learn to accept you for you. That you know that you're amazing, brilliant, talented and chosen. You are destined for greatness. 

Until next year my friend. 
<3 Ebony 

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

The Things That Escape You

It's funny how things can escape you. Your mind and your habits. For me, it's writing. From time to time I get in these moods or modes where, I'm so focused on a project that i neglect to write in this blog. The best part about this blog is using keywords. I have a lot of you who are subscribed, and wait for the next blog post. When it hasn't been done, I see the search engine keywords. It makes me happy to know that you are still searching for something. It also makes me happy to know that you're searching here for some type of answers.

I noticed that for the entire month of November I've written maybe two blogs including this one. I've been blessed with an opportunity to be contracted to write something amazing that I can't share with you just yet, but I'm excited to share with you soon enough.  I've been so overjoyed and overwhelmed by the opportunity, that everything else was on immediate hold until I was done.

That could be a good thing or a bad thing. 

Good thing because, well, I'm focused. It could also be a bad thing because I'm forgetting about the reality around me. When I'm so focused I pay no attention to the news, social media, those around me and I isolate myself. Then when I'm finished, I come out of this dark room like Gollum looking for the ring. I'm hunched over, crippled with my hands crossing one another, hairless because I took my wig off (just kidding) but you get my drift. 

I have to learn to balance certain things. How to get things done but still be a functioning part of society. Or, is that idea far fetched because as a writer we're never really part of society. We're the outcasts, the loners who create these weird worlds from strange dreams and ideas that others laugh at, but also rush to the theaters to see, or pick up a book to read. We're criticized for thinking differently, awkwardly, strangely but then praised for the ability to create different worlds...it's so confusing. 

Anyways

The point of this blog is to share, that I"ll be back on it soon enough with new stories, more encouragement and exciting news about my career. Stay tuned. 

<3 Ebony